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Sad indeed... Well, what can I say? You and I both knew this was going to happen sooner than later. All of the comments I have received as of late have been rather humorous but painfully true...and finally pushed me to admit what I had been trying to deny for so long. Don't get me wrong, I'm not calling it quits...I just need some time. Time to get my shit back together. Time to figure out just exactly what the hell I want to do (whether that means a simple update, site re-design...argggg...). I'll be around again soon in some form or another, I'm sure of that. So. Instead of some stupid little splash page I have decided to keep the current content in place. There are still a lot of memories and posts that I have forgotten about and look back to now and again. Sigh...now I'm going to cry * sniff *. Well, I guess that's it for now. If you'd like to talk about anything...shoot. If not, thanks for sticking by me for so long. I'll catch you on the other side my friend. - m Friday, June 28, 2002  
Socks and squares don't I need a life.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about buying a house. My transitional period of yearning for freedom and stretching my proverbial wings has well run over the two year mark. I know I'm young, but I'm not exactly getting any younger. Either way I'm tired of throwing my money away on rent and not having anything to show for it (yes mom, I should have listened to you years ago). I suppose it is a sign of age however. It's funny how priorities and desires in life change over time (sometimes overnight)...how we expect things will be. How we expect where will be. Actually, I thought I would eventually be making the move up to Cleveland where I work. After a while and a little getting used to the hour or so commute, it seemed to make more sense to stay around here for now. The cons just happened to outweigh the pros. For the longest time however it seemed that I was sort of stuck in limbo not knowing what the hell I was going to do or where I was going to end up. Now I guess it's at least comforting to know that I'm headed in a more straightforward direction towards the unknown.
Hey...happy freakin' birthday ya big hypochondriac! I've been spending a lot of time with my new toy lately. It feels good getting back around to my music again (even though I mainly play guitar). It has made me realize how much I miss playing...how much I miss having such an expressive creative outlet. I'd like to start writing more. So far I've done everything short of hooking all of my instruments up to my computer so I can record. Now I just need to learn how to function properly without any sleep.
Perhaps the hardest part of having something to say is not being able to say anything at all.
Happy New Year! It's hard to believe that another year has come and gone already. I celebrated this evening with a bunch of friends and was home shortly after midnight (mind you it was by choice). Ha...I guess I'm not quite the party animal I used to be! Now it's after three in the morning and I just finished my third cup of coffee. I have a feeling I won't be getting much sleep tonight. Oh. My ambition apparently got the better of me too. You probably noticed the handy new search feature added at the top. I'll tell ya...if this keeps up I might actually resume my regular updates.
Well, what can I say, no news is good news right? I must admit, with all of the heckling I have been getting lately in regards to neglecting my site I can only offer one good word...motivation (or lack there of anyway). Hell, we all go through our phases. I just go through mine more often than others. Perhaps it seems that there have been way too many things on my mind lately. I just want to be able to let it all pour out in one long steady stream of consciousness. And as much as I try there is still nothing. There is something. So many things. still nothing. So. My doctor finally ended up putting me on a mild blood pressure medicine a couple of weeks ago. Big surprise, eh? I've never even had to give a blood sample before all this...the poking and prodding of the needles, the ultrasound, the endless blood pressure readings. Oh, and of course the other ummm...sample. Let's just say that 45 minutes and about 23 glasses of water later I was finally able to leave the doctor's office. I have to go back in about a week for more blood work and god knows how many more office visits after that. And since my doctor said that I'm at a pretty young age and the weight and diet really isn't a factor they prescribed something right away. The hereditary part of it though is another story. Both my mother and my grandfather suffer from hypertension. Now that's a word that I can live with. It also seems a little more fitting for me. A little more dramatic. I mean, I have been known to stress myself out on occasion (and believe me when I tell you that is an understatement). In any event, I'm dealing with it.
I pretty much spent my entire weekend upgrading my mac to a full gig of memory, cleaning out my system with Tech Tool (thanks J), installing a brand new wheeled two-button optical mouse (I had to get rid of that one-button yo-yo), and loading Quake 3 onto my machine. Not too bad if you ask me. Miller and I were up until about 2:30 in the morning playing Quake 3 and I was getting my ass handed to me as usual. It's ok though as long as I'm having fun. Besides, it won't be too long now before I get my scores out of the negatives.
So. I'm sure you remember me telling you about my little ordeal with twisting my knee right? Well, my first day back from vacation I went to the doctor to get it looked at. As it turns out, she was a bit more concerned about my blood pressure than my knee. Hell, I'm only twenty-eight and the last thing I need to be worrying about is high blood pressure. She wants me back in two weeks for some blood work and then a week after that for a follow-up. I'm also pretty sure I'll end up taking some sort of medication too. Great. Ummm...the good news is that my knee is starting to feel better. This is definitely going to be interesting. In other news: Oh my god...all I have to say is that Jack Black is totally hilarious! Now, keep in mind that I don't currently have cable so I've never actually seen his show (hell, if I did have cable I'd never leave my couch). My first real notice of him was in High Fidelity (which is a great movie). Anyway...go check him out and get the latest album. I gotta go...I can't stop laughing.
I finally got all of the pictures from my Nashville trip done and posted...it took me a little longer than I thought with a total of about 77 photos (and that's only half of what I actually took). Phew! Yaaawwwwwwnnn...I'm going to bed. G'night! |
Listening: Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - Live at Luther College
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